the concept of “one’s digital footprint” is interesting.
I mean, just look at me – I have so much stupid crap online. Fb posts, silly opinion articles I wrote for magazines who were stupid enough to publish me… even entire blogs and accounts. (*Like; i have my blog from when I was like, 17, still up 😅 that thing was ridiculous. and I keep saying I’ll take it down, and never do. I forgot like, the email address I used to login with it, or something like that, and so I can’t get logged in to the account anymore, in order to delete it. I need to ask the WordPress people how to go around that 😅😂 Wtf, though – it’s been like almost a decade since I began that thing. I’m a grown-a@@ woman now. It’s been ten years. Countries have been liberated in this span of time. (*including my own home country, Sudan. the president got ousted. alhamdulillah, thank god! That was a miracle if I ever saw one – he was there since 1988, I think. He cooked the election every time – even winning many of ’em by like 94% , but no one ever voted for him.. 😖 he was a corrupt felon.
So yeah – *Bashir* literally left power before I took any initiative on my blog. I still* have my stupid teenage blog up. ~Historical events~ have unfolded, and I still have my stupid blog from a million billion yrs ago up fr evryone to see. With my procrastination, I’ll probably still have it when Armageddon comes, loool 🤣. In other words that STUPID THiNG (my blog, not Armageddon. Though; I don’t know about that, either) *is not coming down.* lool.
I need help..
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Another aspect of this ‘digital footprint’ thing (which is more important than the aforementioned): i feel quite bad and sheepish, because many of my views have changed a lot since I started posting things online. I mean, I’m gravitating towards a more ‘do your own thing’ approach to life, now.. A ‘just do you’ thing (*and don’t hurt anybody else, of course..). Whereas when I was younger and I was ‘sharing my views’ on social media, etc., my outlook on life was heavily derived from my upbringing, and from sort of examining other people, and what they* did/how they thought about things in life. I hadn’t really formulated my own conscious personality, yet. I wasn’t there yet, developmentally, I think. And so, I feel that I’m largely a different person than when I had published a lot of different things online, throughout the years. 😞 *and looking back on a lot of them, I’m just like, huh? what? I don’t even believe* that sh*t, anymore 😂. ‘that was a silly thing to believe/express/share/articulate/assert/opine/think’, and etc. 😅 😞😞
another thing that bothers me: there were times when I posted stuff online when I was really angry. lol. I’m not an angry person, though – I’m fine. But I mean I was just angry about some stuff, at the time. And so I did the classic ‘online rants’ and like, shouting, I guess. Lol – I really lost my cool, at times. 😅☯️⚛️ at other times, I had posted stuff when I wasn’t feeling the best. In more ways than one. I mean, I had actually at times posted stuff when I was like, straight-up sick with untreated psychosis and aggression. Lol, that’s why you should only post stuff when you’re either mentally healthy (not ill), or mentally ill, but medicated/treated. Lol.. ‘cause like otherwise, that psychosis will get you, son.. You’ll say stuff without thinking it through, logically. And it might be the death of you, later on. You might be like, wtf – that was barely me. I don’t even talk like that, when I’m well. (with treatment.) Or even think* like that (in some of the more drastic cases). 😞 trust me, I know..
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Yeah.. But anyway, hopefully that blog’ll come down soon. Sometime in the next coming decade, or so 🥳🥳 (god willing😞)
Ok bye 😙😙
😋☮️☯️ ty take care
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